One of the things they study at the
Penn Center forNeuroasthetics where I am an artist in residence, is facial anomalies. These
include the obvious, such as cleft palate but the spectrum continues into the
more typical such as scars, or other so called “disfiguring” conditions that
leave a face “distorted”.
All in quotes
because the stakes are high.
Check these out. It is fair to say that we as humans assess each other’s and
our own faces and if there is anything that deviates a little too far from what we expect, we notice.
Unfortunately, biases against facial anomalies do exist in
society. People with facial anomalies may face prejudice, discrimination, or
negative judgments based on their appearance. Yes—even by persons who claim
they don’t. This bias can stem from societal beauty standards, cultural
influences, lack of understanding, fear, or ignorance about these
conditions. This is what they study at
PCfN. The good news is that the bias seems changeable.
Facial anomalies interest me personally for a few reasons. One is from the POV of self-image. How does it affect a person if they feel like
a freak—even if they aren’t, say, in the case of body dysmorphia? Second: a zillion times I have been asked
about why I distort faces when I draw them.
What’s it all about???? I wish I
knew. All I can say is that it’s a very
strong, irresistible compulsion. Until
they look like that, I am massively unsatisfied and will destroy or alter them
until they do. They are to me, extremely
gorgeous. To others, I can’t say. But to me, they are right, and all other
faces are not-right.
Another factor in this piece was relating facial anomalies
to “glass anomalies”. What constitutes an assault on our assumptions about health,
integrity and wholeness in glass and stained glass design itself?
One thing about being a stained glass artist is dealing
with broken glass. In fact, all glass is
broken in that that’s how you get it to be the desired shape. Intention matters, but only so much. Basically, you break it into shape. And of course, it breaks on its own
sometimes. I have had many a call an email from someone really panicking
because something has quote-unquote broken. Not that it matters in the grand scheme of
human affairs, but people are really biased against broken glass, as if there
was something wrong with it! But…not all
breaks signify damaged goods and sometimes it just adds to the story and look
of the piece in a positive way. However, usually its seen as disfiguring and a
very bad thing indeed. Suddenly its no longer perfect!! (as if it ever
was!)
But of course, the breaks often add to the content in
significant ways, actually improving it: Check out these cool historical
examples: (AND THESE TOO!)
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Take that, Rene Descartes!
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Silence! Its golden.
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Upside down peace sign on the pope, what could it mean?
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Bisected cupid (a vast improvement)
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Moustache |
Most breaks in a window do not cause any issue with the
structure. Virtually ALL stained glass
windows have breaks in them and plenty of them if the window is old. The only time I worry is if they are
prominent enough that they interfere with the design. Like if they are right through the face.......I think you see where I am going with this!
In this piece, I wanted to address my own preciousness with
the people I draw. I wanted to challenge the notion that breakage=damage. I
wanted to see if I could intentionally break the faces right where it would
matter. Although, what I found was that in many cases,
I couldn’t go through with it. For one
thing, in order to up the ante, I made sure the painting was some of my very
best. Much harder to make myself
intentionally break it!
It is said that ugliness, dirt, weeds etc are things that are
perceived as being “out of place”, things that might be perfectly acceptable...somewhere else, thank you very much..... Breaks in glass fall into this category.
All this reminds me of how our aesthetic sense works: we
are on the lookout for certain things.
We tend to have a preference for the “normal du jour”, we really like
beauty (which could be said to be normal du jour that’s exaggerated in such a way
that we are turned on rather than off) and we are destabilized by things that
are anomalous. To put it really bluntly, we tend to find them
un-attractive aka UGLY.
And yes, I am more than
familiar with the fact that some DO see them as attractive. I am one of them and
that’s why I wanted to make the piece—to create an opportunity to reconsider that what
upsets the apple cart is actually an opportunity to expand our definition of
the beautiful.
Technical deets:
My windows was painted with Reusche stencil black enamel mixed with the awkwardly named "red for flesh". I paint on a sandblasted surface. Each roundel has about 4-5 firings at 1225F.